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truth is ; Monday, October 02, 2006 3:53 AM
I wouldn't have crawled in a lifeboat with you if our ship was sinking. It didn't matter that you have been frightened. you have become a traitor and i don't forgive that quickly.
I love you. Yes we broke up. Yes I started hanging around with other people whom I am infatuated with. Yes I fooled around a little but everytime I am with them I realise I don't know them too well. I have hyped them up in my head to be so much more than what they really was. And everytime I am with you, I can see that you have never been less than I remembered. And that's what I think love is. when your hindsight is twenty twenty, and you still wouldn't change a thing.
So why? Yes after all what is a lie? The truth in masquerade?
I survive. I will do what you can't. I used to sit around looking for a way to make sense of what has happened, like there was some kind of answer I can find if i just look hard enough. Then one day I realised that if there had been one, you would still be here. I wonder if this.... this feeling that I couldn't figure it all out...was what you have been feeling too.
Just don't make me something into i am not. Don't fight my battles. I hang around my new friends and dread going out with you as much as I love it because they don't expect me to be perfect like you do.
I am scared of you......I never wanna talk to you again. Because my whole life was about you,....but what if your whole life wasn't about me?....I dun ever wanna know.
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