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; Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:37 PM
I have moved
lovemehatemefuckme.blogspot.com
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Do You Know? ; Friday, February 02, 2007 2:50 AM
You're not sure that you love me but you're not sure enough to let me go.Baby it ain't fair you know to just keep me hangin' 'round. You say you don't wanna hurt me, don't want to see my tears.So why are you still standing here just watching me drown
And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine. Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine.Just take your love and hit the road.
There's nothing you can do or say. You're gonna break my heart anyway.So just leave the pieces when you go
You can drag out the heartache. Baby you can make it quick. Really get it over with and just let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you've left for me. I can clean it up, you see.Just as long as you're gone.
You not making up your mind is killing me and wasting time.I need so much more than that
Just leave the pieces and go.
"Do you want to run away together?"
I would say it was your best line ever. Too bad I fell for it.And I walked alone. Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off.
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind.
You forced me to become strong when I just craved being weak.
And you think you know and I would like to think so.
But do you know that when you go, I fall apart?
I'm tired of hiding
Behind these lying eyes
I'm tired of this smile
That even I don't recognize
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You know I'm no good. ; Tuesday, January 16, 2007 2:25 AM
You know I'm no good.
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; Tuesday, December 26, 2006 8:56 AM
when is too much too much?i only know i love you loads and i know you need your space.but can we get a little more personal?coz i need to know you more. and i need to know what i need to pay to keep this ride going.
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missing you ; Tuesday, December 19, 2006 10:18 PM
Loving someone can drive you crazy sometimes. Like how you think about the someone 24/7,wondering how he feels and wondering what he is doing. I guess i can no longer think in terms of 'me' but in terms of 'us' which is scary sometimes. Suddenly i am scared. Scared of being bruised again and i hate these walls that Ian had built for me. I wish i can tear them down. I wish WE can tear them down together.
I wish you are here.again.with me.kissing me.telling me everything is ok again.i miss you.c.again.it sucks.
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; Sunday, December 17, 2006 8:33 PM
Ok being attached actually grounds you. It means you cant go clubbing with yourself and a group of single friends and hope to get lucky. It means you have to talk less and be less flirty online. It means you are supposed to not give a damn thought to your exes. OMG. i am happily attached. I guess its high time for the party animal in me to die.....though its kinda sad. My hips still sway when I hear thumping RnB music in shopping malls. I still imagine myself on the dancefloor, dancing like no one is watching be it dirty dancing with Jasmin or Geraldine at MOS or bumping and grinding at Tabz or Attica..But I guess it's time to grow...I mean the world doesnt revolve around clubbing.
It's immature to get high every week and hook up with a random stranger and regretting.
It's also responsible and I don't think C will tolerate any of these nonsense.
On a lighter note, dating C is kinda weirdly fun. I feel younger and the childish one in this relationship whereas C is so stable and everything. But I guess I haven't let C see my emotional side yet. so far it's been movie and dinner dates.keeping it low key and safe. Though Zoukout was really really outtacontrol fun. Imagine making out in public. I held back my tears during the Holiday and I felt really low after watching The Last Kiss. i mean no one cares about my Rachel Bilson and I feel almost silly telling C that. Haha. I really ponder what his views on love and relationships are.
I am so afraid that his will be different from mine. I am a romantic at heart. I hope he won't take that away from me. however up till now, C is perfect and what i really need in my life right now. He came to save me from myself. The self destructive,clubbing 4 times a week Yuqing well is gone for now. all I wanna do now is cuddle.
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thailand ; Friday, December 15, 2006 3:03 AM
Bangkok sucks.......the air here is so filthy tt I am suffering from. The treaffic congestion is so bad that my parents prefer to wal;k from one point to another.Not really a good idea when a)the air is smelly. b)your legs are already tired. c)your hands are filled with your mom's shoppings. Worse still travelling with my parents is so boring. They are so uptight over everything from security to like budget. Its so pointless to go out with them. They afre so fun sucking. They suck the fun out of everything. It's like if you are so concerned over budget then lets eat at the roadside la. its so fun and culture enriching. Instead
I have to eat at some singaporean food court and have to hear them grumbling over prices. PAIN IN THE ARSE. and now ya are probably thinking that I am some ungrateful bitch. ARGH!!!!!!! Shopping here is not too shabby.....just that I didnt manage to drown myself with tt much Abercrombie and Fitch as much as I would like to......Only managed an A& F cargo berms which is a steal. I managed to buy polo tees for clarence and yun yuan. well a pair of leather shoes for myself.a pair od adidas boots for myself.a pair of dress pants for myself. two dress shirts for myself. 2 tee shirts for myself again. 1 grey berms for myself again.a rusty berms for myself again..oh ya and season 3 of The OC dvd. 3 boxers to be shared among gary me and clarence.....
I miss clarence........ARGH....cant wait to get back to Spore...and pattaya water is not blue and shiny...the beach suckssssssssssss........i wanna go home!!!!!
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